Felt like trying O Cha Cha.

Have you ever reached a point where you just felt you couldnt do aniting right at all? Have you ever reached a point where you felt like giving up everything and even yourself?

That is exactly how I feel right now.

Repeating cycle, same stuff, same things. I cant be truthful. I cant lie either. Then can someone teach me what I should say or do? I have fallen into a hole, so deep and dark I cant see myself. The rope is alwiz breaking. It isnt strong enough. Or, perhaps I wasnt determined enough.

I cant please everyone, or rather the people I wana please.

Pretended I din c. Tried changing topics. Acted ignorant. Yet, I find it so hard to run away from the topic which is brought up again and again. Felt the urge to make a white lie, but I told myself I shouldnt. Predicted Results.

Even my stomach is starting to reject food. Two days in a row, I ate little. Even my stomach is rebelling against me. I deserved it. I should have known. I just carved a road of darkness for me yet again. Smiling when I am not, is just not my cup of tea.

Felt like trying out O Cha Cha. It sounded heavenly. Probably I should go try it soon, then I would be able to feel the beauty of life.

Drive away the dark clouds soon. I cant take it animore.