Felt like writing something here.

A true winner is someone who wins peoples' hearts as well as excel acamedically. A person who wishes to win in ALL aspects at ALL times are people unlikely to compromise at times and unlikely to be popular. They think that they are ALWAYS right and wants tings in their favour. An overly headstrong and determined person can be super irritating too when he/she doesnt get the tings he/she wants and I do mean, IMMEDIATELY.

^_^ Starting today I live a life minus 1. I consider her out of my life. 2 is wad I have, not 3.

Something is missing..

Being random~

Thanks YJ for taking leave just to celebrate my birthday for me. Tink he is much more excited than me. lol. In the morning, he went early to J8 to book tickets for the Liang Zi Qiang ghost show. Haha. Nice and funni de show. First story was creative, teach u how to earn money :X Second story was abit scary. Third story was more on kinship, and it was quite funny. Lol. =P

Then, he brought me to have a feast yest at Bali Thai (if i am not wrong about the name). Expensive feast which serves both Indonesian and Thai food for buffet.

YJ's test tube drink, out from the chemistry lab. Lol. His is nice. Mine tasted horrible lah. Never gonna order this drink ever ever again. Tastes more like soursop than lychee. Gosh. Sour si ler. T.T

My two favourite dishes - Pandan Chicken and Sambal Sotong. Yum!

Okay, that concludes our buffet lunch and our only meal for yesterday. :D

He also bought me a birthday gift. Thanks~

Received many birthday wishes yesterday, especially after midnight. Thanks so much for the wishes. =)

I had hoped so much that THEY would wish me, THEY that never onlined in my msn animore. THEY that I had lost contact wif. At least that would make me feel happy cuz they remembered I existed. But then again, I wished wif a small percentage in my heart that THEY din, so that I would noe I shouldnt hope so much animore. But if that happened, I would feel damn disappointed. So much contradictions. I miss THEM.

Well, slightly after midnight, I felt hopes were dashed. I felt disappointed. No offline msgs, no smses, no calls. Noting at all. Then suddenly like magic, those wishes from them came. I felt happy for a moment. Then..disappointed and sad. Things just arent the same animore..The efforts arent so much animore. I couldnt request for aniting else. I just cant. Even if I did, those requests wun be fulfilled, even on my birthday. Then I tot back about tings that happened weeks ago. Was the action done on purpose? Or you remembered? Or cuz you were notified? I hope that its cuz you remembered. Afterall I din c any recent activity until yest after midnight. So I guess you remembered and came just to wish me. As fast as that happened, it was gone. The day I was looking forward to was over. There is no other days that I know, I would still remain contact wif you all, or know I am still in your hearts.

Couldnt sleep. Thank God I slept in the afternoon yesterday. I knew I will feel this way but I just cant stop the way I am feeling. Felt the urge to do wad D's ex did. I told myself I would never do that, but the urge came. Habits are just too hard to kick. I expected more..

Officially older by one year. Arent really happy though. Tings are missing in my life.

THEY are gone....

While waiting for the stamina in Fish A Fish to replenish, I shall jot down some rubbish here first. Lol. Today wanted to satisfy my craving for MARKS and SPENCERS cookies and Candy Empire's sweets, so VIVO I went! Cuz got both my favourite shops there, M&S and Candy Empire! Woots!

Going to Vivo brought back some memories. But behind those memories, sad to say, is a fullstop, sealed tight, never to be continued. Haiz. Kinda miss those times sitting there by the sea, facing Sentosa, chatting our hearts out and her capturing the evening sky there and using her lappy to blog. Those were the days. Long gone. Since months ago. I cant help but guess, frienship can relli be brittle. If we were still friends, probably she would be planning these few days, where and when to mit up, to celebrate my bdae. Still remembered last year, when she waited for me at my office lobby wif a rose in her hands. Remembered the efforts she put in to mit BBQ at his office just to get him to write some ting on the birthday card, and then presenting him as a surprise guest for the dinner.

Vivo oso reminded me of luvy. Hadnt met up wif him for quite some time. The lamest person I have ever known, but never failing to cheer mi up wif his lamest ever jokes. Hope to mit up with him soon...

BBQ has been busy working. Hadnt caught up wif him, other than at times we saw each other in Audi. Wonder how is him? Wonder how is everyone?

This year, I guess it would be different. They are gone. They who celebrated my bdae wif me for 3 years. I procrastinated. Somehow I still hope for something. Or probably, I am used to them being around me during special ocassions especially. A habit. A wish. A hope.

And on the train to YJ's house today, saw Jansen, but he duno got see me a not. Omg. Lol. Brought back poly memories. I miss those poly days. Haha. Poly was fun.. (: Memories that stay....forever...

Happy National Day peeps! (:

My favourite birthday wishes :D

Not that I dun wan to blog. Is cuz my blogger was down for two days. I juz cant upload any pictures!

Aniwae, we had a birthday celebration for all August babies in our office on Friday. We had a lunch in buffet and each of us August babies had one knife to cut one side of the cake and take fotos. Lmao. Our manager is an August baby too, and altogether, there were 6 of us (: For monthly birthdays, birthday people are supposed to buy birthday gifts with the 68 dollars they are given. As I mentioned, I duno wad to buy lahs. Then very boliao de, cuz we buy le, then colleague need wrap the prezzie up and hand them to us on the day of celebration. BOLIAO RITE! Then so malu la, cuz the colleagues wan us to show them wad we bought. Most bought perfume la, one bought twilight set of books, and me ley? I feel so paiseh to open mine, cuz mine is like the cheapest? I bought...

lol. Dun luff at me! Then when open my present, everyone was like "wah, wads that?" then come take a closer look. Sae I very smart, buy collectors item blahblah. Then all discussing about MJ and one of them so enthu, wan watch the dvd. Still ask my manager can on anot, everyone can watch. -.-" Then after the lunch, I went back to my desk, wan to do my work, then that colleague came and asked me to on the dvd. *faints* Then all watching there lah, so paiseh. My manager oso watching *LOL* Fun day cuz we hardly have the time to "gossip" in the toilet in one whole group before the celebration. And the "gossip" was started by me. LOL. Cuz I say one of my colleagues starting to get nottier. Then they "complain" to my manager say I say they notti. Waliew. Spoil my "guai" image. haha.

Today's National day and I managed to catch Elson's advertisement. hehe. YJ gave me a surprise today by turning up at my doorstep. =.=" These days, he juz likes to give me lots of surprises. Rawr. But I guess, I am happy but very very bored!

Parade's starting soon, and later got Singapore Idol. :D And cant watch the Man U vs Chelsea match later. =(( My Michael Owen. Lol.

Tata!

Sleepy :D

I wish I know your intentions. I wish I know your motives. Your actions spelt "purposely" and I felt disappointed that I held on and believed in you. I trusted you would never do such a thing. It only spelt that either you are selfish, or you wana bring harm to me in some way, or probably, I really duno you afterall. Or probably, I wish to believe what you did was under peer pressure, but afterall, no one can force you to do something you dun wish to do. Either way, I have always believed that you are much more matured in handling stuffs, and never expected this to come from you. Afterall, I have always confided in you. Those words you had used on me before, are the exact words I have for you now.

The appetite for eating is dying once again. Bought Mee Pok wif fishballs yesterday for lunch. Ended up eating only the fishballs. Threw away the rest. Then din eat much for dinner.
Today, I managed to finish my lunch though, but I already am starting to feel bloated. Good in a way though, probably I can diet in this way (:

Not in the mood to work! I wana go home. I wan time to go back! I wana change the wrongs into rights! I feel sleepy and tired.

Disappointed.

I din tink you would do such a ting, at least to me. But I was so wrong when I saw your name appear there. =.= Wads ur motive?? You made me feel disappointed, really disappointed.

I kept trying to remind myself, "Life is cool", but "Why? Why? Why?" keeps popping into my head.

Today's a rainy day and god, I felt so sleepy at work. Wasnt productive at all! haha. I wana continue slacking tomorrow, do my tings slowly and enjoy the time passing by. I feel so lazy! :X I din like going to work. Office politics and a cold war going on everyday. Sick and tired of it. I told myself to ignore everyting around me. I am gonna start to take tings one step at a time, do what I am supposed to do, and not caring about any other tings other than the tings I am supposed to be concerned with. Then when time is ripe, I would just say "Bye".

Aniwae, I am really those sort who can treat you nicely if you treat me nicely. I can give you the same treatment, even twice of what you treat me. This is me. (: But if you really try to step on me, dun blame me when I give you a double treatment of it back.

I guess this is life. But I wana be smiling. At least I wan to try to smile when the odds are against me. I wan to be a new me. (:

I am Loving It~

Friday night, I had continuous dreams of the two brothers and one of EME's members. *Faint* But I am not naming who the EME member is. *LOL*

Yesterday, we went to Ion Orchard. This is how Ion Orchard looks like. (juz in case you have never been there before. Heh). A shopping centre selling branded stuffs. I know I wun spend aniting there cuz all the stuffs too branded le lahs. lol. Went there to peep at my client :x Wana c how they look like *haha* Managed to peep but I duno who is who. *pengz*

Next stop is at Parkway Parade. Went there shopping first but I still hadnt found aniting to buy using the S$68 birthday money given by colleagues, and I had to get something with it! Die lahs. I am those sort who can only buy tings wif something in mind, but rite now, there isnt anyting much I wish I can get. Why cant I dun spend and keep that S$68?? Rofl.

Carol mei smsed me to ask mi where I am. Lol. But I was still shopping. :x When I came down, I saw her sitting there with Yuan Zhuang but I din dare approach them, reason being is cuz, I am not really used to approaching people, until I have gathered enough courage, or I have no choice. So I din approach her. Then I saw Elson's boss reached le and was talking to them. The more I din wan to approach them. *Lol* Then she walked past us a few times and I tot she saw me, but looks like she din. Saw Shawn Tok oso. The winner of campus superstar. He's Elson's friend and was there to support Elson too. I saw them walk to Mcdonalds. I suppose to meet up with Elson and to have their dinner. So me and YJ went to Fish and Co to eat our dinner. :D After they are back from Mcdonalds, Carol called me, asking where I am. *Lol*

Came out from Fish and Co after our dinner, then she spotted us. :X Elson was there too, and they asked Elson over as well, who took photos wif us. Ahh..so paiseh :\ This time, Carol was friendly :D

Elson singing on stage. :D

After the event, we joined Elson, his boss, EME, Shawn and his friends for a drink at Mos Burger, though I was really full then. Actually my impression of his boss was that he is a fierce guy, (impression from the Bukit Timah Plaza event) , but I tink I am quite wrong. He is funni and crappy and livened up the whole atmosphere. =) Laughed at his jokes. YJ oso told him of my wish to ask Elson to sing at my xxxx haha. Then they joked say better dun sing "Fen Shou Kuai Le" *F3* His boss let us hear the demo of the advertisement Elson filmed in. He said it sounded like Mcdonalds advertisement cuz of the song. He told us that this advertisement would be shown on tv starting National Day. I tink it should be aired on Channel 5 first. =)

Enjoyed myself though it's only a short while. Received Elson's cd at last. =) Thankies. And thanks Carol mei for breaking the ice ^^

Sis told me last nite that dad wans us to go shopping for furniture today at 11 am, and it's 11:54 oredi and we are still at home. I had made plans to go Expo today de lehs. Kinda annoyed! I hate it when my plans are ruined. RAWR.

"Life is Cool". That's what Sweetbox sang. AFter listening to this song, I hope this is what I can achieve. Tink positively cuz someone else would have it worse than me. Instead of complaining, rearrange. The grass will be greener on the other side. I have to work on this! =) Life is Cool~

Tonite, Liverpool vs Singapore match at 7pm! =x Looking forward to it! Hopefully the inspirational Torres can play longer!